Weigh in night last night. Gained 800g. Not unexpected due to TTOM when my ovaries suddenly fill with lead. I was kind of hoping for a smaller gain though. * sighs audibly *
Since the weather has cooled down something has happened to me.
Shitloads of chocolate. Mountains & mountains of the stuff.
Dark, White, Milk I don't care.
I have a problem. I need to go to CA. Chocaholics Anon.
Last night after my meeting I was feeling a bit down about my gain and a bit stroppy that it seems like I will NEVER crack the 85 kilos. It was late. I was hangry. (combination of hungry & angry).
Iwas stuffed if I felt like cooking and TBF didn't either so I popped into Coles.
"Shit what can I get that will take 2 seconds to cook *grumble*. Stupid weight. *mumble* Bloody fat arse * moan* I don't give shit anymore *whine* That'll bloody do" I muttered to myself as I grabbed the Coles brand Indian takeaway food knowing full well the Pro-Points of these are on average about 5000 points each. (actually I calculated it at 30PP).
On the way out something caught my eye.
OH MY GOD
A NEW KIT-KAT FLAVOUR!!!!!!!!!!!!
CARAMEL KIT-KAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yep I bought it. As I was shovelling it into my mouth with no regard for eating it one stick at a time I was very aware of the thoughts & feelings inside of me.
The emotions went as follows:
Look I know that WW is all about NOT depriving yourself BUT my Gawd people I am having sweets almost EVERY day. I am CRAVING the stuff.
I sometimes wonder if because I no longer drink grog my brain and body is looking for a replacement.
I've had a shit of a day so I DESERVE this Cadbury Marvellous Creation.
I did 45 minutes on the bike last night so I DERSERVE this box of Lindt choc balls.
I watched Bondi Resue without making any smartarse comments so I DESERVE a apple & walnut scroll from Bakers Delight.
It's bloody cold so I NEED not one but two white chocolate & blueberry scones.
Afterwards it's like I suddenly wake up from my chocolate induced trance and look around dumbly "Huh? What happened? What's this brown stuff around my mouth? Why am I covered in crumbs?"
Mental note: Stop looking at the Food & Drink catergory on Pinterest.
OMG all those pictures of cupcakes, cakes & brownies.
Help me people.
Save me from this delicious glass n a half cacao nightmare.
Hello my name is Vicki
And I'm a chocoholic.